Well, it has officially been 1 week since I decided to lose weight & I have lost 7.5 pounds!!! It feels great knowing that I am fighting against PCOS so I can gain back some power over my body. I have truly felt powerless over this condition for so long. I have tried to lose weight time and time again but always let my thoughts of the studies and statistics I've read of those with PCOS over power my mind and I give up every time..but NOT this time! So what if majority of women with PCOS are obese? I am not majority of women! I am me and I will not allow myself to think that way or be put into that category anymore. I used it as an excuse and although it is true, I don't have to be one of the women in that statistic! They also say that majority of women with PCOS are infertile and cannot have children but God has proven to me that I CAN! So right there I know that I can no longer look at it as truth for myself because I am so much more than that. I have and still am struggling with getting pregnant but I will not say that I am infertile! I have gotten pregnant, my body has carried a beautiful healthy baby who is now growing into an amazing young man and I believe that my body can & WILL do it again. I have to stick to the weight loss, stay positive, keep praying, believe and trust that I can fight PCOS! I will be healthy and will have another healthy baby. I need to stay strong and realize that I am SO much more than I have believed myself to be...I AM WORTH IT!

So I have decided to start weight watchers to help me on this weight loss journey. I started on Friday 6/22/2012 and will weigh in each Friday morning. I haven't yet, but plan to do my Turbo Fire Kickboxing workout as well. If only I can stop with the excuses, get motivated and find a time each day to get it done. I don't understand how I can want to lose weight so bad but yet always seem to be able to talk myself out of working out or eating something that I know I shouldn't?
The strong desire to have another baby has gotten that much stronger in the past month or two. Logan has been asking why he doesn't have a baby but all of his friends do and talking about names and what he would do as a big brother, prays for a baby brother or sister and I think his want for one just makes mine that much more.
I knew that I wanted to wait to have another so that they wouldn't be too close together & I could focus all of my attention and love on the beautiful miracle that we waited so long for but as Logan gets older I am starting to think of how much I don't want them to be too far apart. I know that it will happen in God's time & I continue to pray & believe that He will bless us with another miracle. In the meantime I HAVE to work on myself, lose weight, get healthy and be ready for when He does decide to do so. Maybe He is waiting for me to do my part???

Today I have decided that I will NO LONGER allow PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) to have control over my body. It has caused far too much weight gain and has made TTC (trying to conceive) a living nightmare for me over the past 6+ years! Thankfully God blessed me with a healthy, beautiful and amazing son, Logan in December of 2008 and I couldn't be happier to be his mommy! I would like nothing more than to add another precious miracle to our family, however with my weight, I only see another pregnancy full of major discomfort & yet again being HUGE! I wouldn't change being pregnant for the world & long for it so much but I think one of the reasons I haven't gotten pregnant with another is because I am so overweight and they say the only thing proven to help reverse PCOS is to lose weight. So now I am ready to......
"Fight PCOS 1 Pound at a Time"! 

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