I am super frustrated! I have been working hard at losing weight (healthy eating & exercise) & for the past 3-4 weeks my body is holding onto all it can. I have been on hormones that are suppose to aid in getting me pregnant and I'm almost wondering if they could be having anything to do with why my body is refusing to go below this weight? We did our first IUI last month and I didn't fall pregnant. Business expenses took over right now so we can't afford to do it again this month. So here I am STILL playing the waiting game and feeling nothing short of D-E-F-E-A-T-E-D! I am an emotional wreck every day! Crying one minute, laughing, then mad at the world the next. I am just over it! Why does my body have to continuously fail me? I keep telling myself, "you did it once before just do it one more time, PLEASE?!?!?"
I think the fact that my Logey bear is now in preschool, has set off my emotions as well. Just knowing my baby is not a baby anymore and wanting another so much! Heck, he does too! He still asks almost daily when God will put a baby in mommy's tummy. In fact the other day he was asking how the baby comes out, where we would be at the hospital, how he would hold the baby. It's so heart wrenching! I wish I had that answer buddy, I really do!

I don't know where to turn or what to do? I just keep praying, crying and trying as hard as I can to stay hopeful. But I must admit that today I'm having a hard time with the word hope...